Default Emotion

OK, so I'm at school today, my web course, that I am taking here in Van. It is only 1 month long - 3 hours/day - Mon-Fri and we are trying to learn html, Dreamweaver, Photoshop, Illustrator, and Flash. For a girl who doesn't know the first thing about any of these, this is quite a feat. Add to this that I can't draw a picture with a pencil, to save my life, and now I have to do it with a mouse. I have been bouncing between frustration and excitement for 2 weeks.

For people who know me well (or actually even just a little bit), you know that tears can come pretty easily for me. My boys call crying, my "default emotion" (notice the quotations Nick). Laughing is a close second. I have been on the verge of tears many times since the course started but have managed to contain them. My face has gone red and the tears were there, ready to flow but I have been able to regain composure. Until today. Poor Mehmet, our Kurdish html instructor. As he was trying to help me with my project (our ywamhockey.com website) I became so frustrated at not understanding how it all works that I could not contain them anymore - the dam burst and the tears flowed. There was no stopping them. It was an awkward moment as I was apologizing for the tears and trying to explain about my "default emotion". Mehmet was a trooper with me and explained and explained again and drew some pictures and explained some more and then gave me a few simple next steps to take. My classmates, Caren from Taiwan and Akiko from Japan, were most gracious. Altho it has been a challenging few weeks, I am excited about the cool things I am learning. I guess this old dog is learning some new tricks.
Hugs!