"Trust"

I'm not sure why but I'm in a can't sleep mode right now. I keep waking up at 1:25 AM and just can't get back to sleep. So today, instead of fighting it I thought I would just go spend some time seeking the Lord. I was so encouraged at what I read in His Word.

It has been quite a rough Fall for me. I was devastated that we did not get enough students for our Hockey DTS. Frankly, I just wanted to quit. But now we had a team member, Krista, who we gave opportunity to switch to staff the Vancouver DTS. After prayer and much consideration, Krista concluded "No, I am called to YWAM Hockey." Cool. Even tho quitting was on my mind, it was really never an option. I believe God has called us to YWAM Hockey as well. As I have been seeking the Lord about all of this, it seems He has had only 2 words for me -"Trust Me". Again being very frank, I was getting tired of that response. It has been what the Lord has been saying to me for almost 3 years. "Trust Me." We were so excited to do our first Hockey DTS and then 3 camps last summer and were so looking forward to the next DTS and poof - it was gone - not enough students. What the heck?(that's Krista talk by the way) And then it seemed that God was silent.

It's tough when our plans don't seem to work out. We thought "ok, maybe we can do a short term hockey outreach ". But we had no peace in that. And so we have been waiting and seeking the Lord. He has been showing me very basic but cool things that maybe I will "blog" about sometime.

Back to this morning at 3:30. Today, in Utmost, Chambers talked about vision. "God will bring the vision He has given you to reality if you will wait on His timing." He talked about Abraham and how he was waiting - for 13 years. "He grew past the point of relying on his own common sense."
Is 50:10 "Who among you fears the LORD and obeys the word of his servant? Let him who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the LORD and rely on his God."
Is 20:10 "In that day the remnant of Israel, the survivors of the house of Jacob, will no longer rely on him who struck them down but will truly rely on the LORD, the Holy One of Israel"
Is 26:4 "Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal." What I find encouraging is that word again, trust. I believe God has given us glimpses - little tastes if you will - Hockey DTS 2005, 3 camps 2006 - but mostly we are still in the dark, trusting that our vision is from God and relying on Him for everything. We can set up programs but we cannot make anyone come to them. So altho I really don't know what is in store for this ministry, I really believe it is from God and that we can trust Him with it.
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